She's lost in a happy nightmare where all dreams come true
He's everything she ever wanted and everything that ever haunted her
She's confussed and restless estatic and anxious
Thinking yes and saying no
All she can see is dirty sunshine
And she's not sorry but she can't stop apologizing
Though she made a promise when she finally told the truth but she lied enough
She sits waiting worried about what will really happen because she look when she wasn't supposed to her feelings bleed out of the songs that's why she doesn't sign anymore
The sleepless nights are her best her mind races so fast but will never win
She's too lazy but she's off the wall She's unchained but caged in
She's waited so long for this moment and can't wait for it to be over
Her feelings run so deep they soon become shallow
She's lost inside but knows her way
She will be found but tries to hide
She will give in without a fight
She uses the "L" word without knowing the meaning
Soon she'll understand
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Random quotes by Random people
These are quotes that crack me up and hopefully they crack you up to.
- A celebrity is a person who works hard all his life to become well known, then wears dark glasses to avoid being recognized. ~Fred Allen
A conclusion is the place where you got tired of thinking. ~McBride Bloch
Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It is already tomorrow in Australia. ~Charles Schulz
An expert is a man who tells you a simple thing in a confused way in such a fashion as to make you think the confusion is your own fault. ~William Castle
"It is amazing how quickly the kids learn to drive a car, yet are unable to understand the lawnmower, snowblower or vacuum cleaner." - ben
"Graduation speeches were invented largely in the belief that college students should never be released into the world until they have been properly sedated."-garry
"Have no fear of perfection--you'll never reach it." -Salvador Dali
"Women are like cell phones. They like to be held and talked to, but push the wrong button, and you'll be disconnected."
When you're in jail, a good friend will be trying to bail you out. A best friend will be in the cell next to you saying, 'Damn, that was fun.'"
"A hard man is good to find." -Mae West
"No matter how happily a woman may be married, it always pleases her to discover that there is a nice man who wishes she were not." -H.L. Mencken
"Yes, madam, I am drunk. But in the morning I will be sober and you will still be ugly." - Winston Churchill
You can't put a price tag on love, but you can on all its accessories." - Melanie Clark
You know you're getting old when the candles cost more than the cake." – Bob Hope
"What the world really needs is more love and less paper work." - Pearl Bailey
18
I barely turned 18 and it feels weird to me. I have all these hormones that are going through my body that i have never felt before and it feel weird. since i titled this 18, i'll give you 18 reasons why being 18 feels good.
1. You are able to vote whoop dit do who cares lol. i shouldn't even say who cares because back in the day women weren't even allowed to vote and they had to fight for their right to vote even when the men didn't want them to and men thought women were stupid and should only be in the kitchen cooking and staying home and having babies.
2.You finally get to go to the doctors and get to sign your own papers without your parents there treating you like a baby telling you what to do.oh yeah did i mention the confidential clause where doctors are not allowed to release your medical reports to your parents without your permission. tight right lol.
3.You are able to get married without your parents consent in Missouri if you want to. lol
4.You finally get to open up your own credit card account and run up as much debts as you want to and end up having to owe the irs money if you aren't careful :)
5.You get to sign contracts on your own, buy a car and rent an apartment without your parents consent yayayaya :)
6.You can enlist in the army> scary place to go to.
7. You get to buy drugs. well i dont understand why the age limit to buy drugs is 18 and to drink is 21? they might as well make them the same age cause both of them is bad.
8. you get a license without having to go through all the drivers ed classes >omg so boring lol
9.You get to work with out your parents permission isnt that awesome
10.you finally get to have sex with someone who is older. plus you get to get birth control and plan b without their permission
11.you can sue mean people in court > me likey this one hehhe
12.you can choose whether or not you want to drop out of school.
13.you can go to clubs without fake ids
14. You can move out
15. you are mature
16. you can watch pornos lmao
17.you can travel without any parents.
18. last but not least> you can buy and go places where 18 year old can go :)
1. You are able to vote whoop dit do who cares lol. i shouldn't even say who cares because back in the day women weren't even allowed to vote and they had to fight for their right to vote even when the men didn't want them to and men thought women were stupid and should only be in the kitchen cooking and staying home and having babies.
2.You finally get to go to the doctors and get to sign your own papers without your parents there treating you like a baby telling you what to do.oh yeah did i mention the confidential clause where doctors are not allowed to release your medical reports to your parents without your permission. tight right lol.
3.You are able to get married without your parents consent in Missouri if you want to. lol
4.You finally get to open up your own credit card account and run up as much debts as you want to and end up having to owe the irs money if you aren't careful :)
5.You get to sign contracts on your own, buy a car and rent an apartment without your parents consent yayayaya :)
6.You can enlist in the army> scary place to go to.
7. You get to buy drugs. well i dont understand why the age limit to buy drugs is 18 and to drink is 21? they might as well make them the same age cause both of them is bad.
8. you get a license without having to go through all the drivers ed classes >omg so boring lol
9.You get to work with out your parents permission isnt that awesome
10.you finally get to have sex with someone who is older. plus you get to get birth control and plan b without their permission
11.you can sue mean people in court > me likey this one hehhe
12.you can choose whether or not you want to drop out of school.
13.you can go to clubs without fake ids
14. You can move out
15. you are mature
16. you can watch pornos lmao
17.you can travel without any parents.
18. last but not least> you can buy and go places where 18 year old can go :)
He's not interested in you.
I'm the type of woman who likes to study people and their movement. I like to study people and observe them before i talk to them or bother saying hi. All my friends say that I'm a big weirdo for studying people but i only do it because i want to be sure that the person i talk to is safe and isn't some kind of creep or stalker.When i think a guy/man is cute i tend to hit them up first or sometimes they hit me up to talk and make a convo. with them and see how it goes and where it will lead to. Guys are way more complicated than females.They like to play as much games as we females do but theirs are even worst. They have a wall and they always have their guard up so they don't get hurt. some men play girls like toys even when they have the right one in their life.All my life I've been played, cheated on, lied to by guys and I'll always ask myself why is this happening to me? why can't i find one good guy who would loves me for me and not want other females? i even asked myself how come i didn't see the signs when it was right there in my face. Then it hit me and as i got older i started to realize the games guys play on females, and how they can lie to you in your face telling you how much they care for you and then next minute you see them telling another chick the same bullshit. here's some ways to tell that he really isn't interested in you at all.
1.The conversations are short and his communications lessens. If he has little/nothing to say on a consistent basis.
2. You ask him out during special occasions or holidays and he tells you that he's unavailable or can't make it and makes up a stupid excuse
3. He never hits you up
4. He doesn't bother checking up on you
5.He stops calling you.
6.You send him a text message,or aim and hours maybe even a day later he still hasn't responded, or he waits hours or a day later to respond: You are an afterthought. if he really wanted to be with you or get to know you he would respond right away in a heart beat.
7. If he calls you at 11 pm or later you're just a booty call and all he wants is sex. he's really not interested in much more.
8.If he constantly calls you boo, cutie, hot and never seem to remember your name then he's not interested.
9.if you hear him say i'm no good at relationships or something like that it means that he has no intentions of being in a relationship with you.
10.If he calls you out of nowhere. it means that he is bored and he is lonely and knows that you'll fill the gap especially when everyone else he called were too busy for to answer his calls.
11.He does not encourage conversation or volunteers anything about himself. He maintains his distance from you.
12.he is ignoring you or disrespects you by putting down your values, thoughts and ideas, he's just not interested in you or in a relationship with you.
13.He declines a social invitation from you and never wants to do a rain check.
14.A guy stands you up, blows you off or shows up late, he does not have respect for your time and plans. Bottom line, he does not respect you and does not care whether or not you are in his life.
15.He's never available on the weekends or occasions that are reserved as date nights, know you're just a passing phase or flavor of the moment.
16.is too busy to see you during daylight hours but has time to swing by for a quick hook up
17.He never wants to introduce you to his family members or his friends
18.he never calls you back the same day and never answers his phone when you call.
19.He blocks you from his buddy list and doesn't respond to your emails
20.he encourages you to date others and not wait around for him, it's because he does not see a future with you and wants to be free to date others as well.
21. He never invites you over to his place.
22.He Never Discusses Your Future
23.You are constantly paying for the bills every time you two go out and he never wants to pay.He is only interested in what he can get out of you
24.He stops calling, changes his phone number, the visits become less and less frequent.
1.The conversations are short and his communications lessens. If he has little/nothing to say on a consistent basis.
2. You ask him out during special occasions or holidays and he tells you that he's unavailable or can't make it and makes up a stupid excuse
3. He never hits you up
4. He doesn't bother checking up on you
5.He stops calling you.
6.You send him a text message,or aim and hours maybe even a day later he still hasn't responded, or he waits hours or a day later to respond: You are an afterthought. if he really wanted to be with you or get to know you he would respond right away in a heart beat.
7. If he calls you at 11 pm or later you're just a booty call and all he wants is sex. he's really not interested in much more.
8.If he constantly calls you boo, cutie, hot and never seem to remember your name then he's not interested.
9.if you hear him say i'm no good at relationships or something like that it means that he has no intentions of being in a relationship with you.
10.If he calls you out of nowhere. it means that he is bored and he is lonely and knows that you'll fill the gap especially when everyone else he called were too busy for to answer his calls.
11.He does not encourage conversation or volunteers anything about himself. He maintains his distance from you.
12.he is ignoring you or disrespects you by putting down your values, thoughts and ideas, he's just not interested in you or in a relationship with you.
13.He declines a social invitation from you and never wants to do a rain check.
14.A guy stands you up, blows you off or shows up late, he does not have respect for your time and plans. Bottom line, he does not respect you and does not care whether or not you are in his life.
15.He's never available on the weekends or occasions that are reserved as date nights, know you're just a passing phase or flavor of the moment.
16.is too busy to see you during daylight hours but has time to swing by for a quick hook up
17.He never wants to introduce you to his family members or his friends
18.he never calls you back the same day and never answers his phone when you call.
19.He blocks you from his buddy list and doesn't respond to your emails
20.he encourages you to date others and not wait around for him, it's because he does not see a future with you and wants to be free to date others as well.
21. He never invites you over to his place.
22.He Never Discusses Your Future
23.You are constantly paying for the bills every time you two go out and he never wants to pay.He is only interested in what he can get out of you
24.He stops calling, changes his phone number, the visits become less and less frequent.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
FAQ by Tina Okoli
Are you a freak?
No, not that type of girl
Are you single?
Yes i am
Are you looking for a relationship?
honestly that's not my main concern right now but if it happens then it happens.
Are you a virgin?
Yes i am.
When are you going to stop being a virgin?
when i get married lol. if i happen to lose it before getting married then i lose it. i don't know my future so we'll just have to see what and who's in it
Are you really 18?
Yes i am i just turned 18
What school you go to?
I'm sorry thats really a classified information :)
Is it true that you never wear make-up in your pictures?
yes its true. i only wear make-up to my job because its one of the requirements.
Are you in to girls?
No, i'm not. i may think say a girl is pretty or hot but all girls do that even if they arent gay.
Do you support the gays?
Of course i do 100%%%
Do you like animals?
certain ones yes. i love puppies and newborn dogs
Do you want to have sex?
one day i would like to experience how it feels like but again its not my biggest worries.
Are you scared of life ?
who isn't lol. i love my life. i'm a girl i get scared sometimes
Are your tits real?
yes they are.
No, not that type of girl
Are you single?
Yes i am
Are you looking for a relationship?
honestly that's not my main concern right now but if it happens then it happens.
Are you a virgin?
Yes i am.
When are you going to stop being a virgin?
when i get married lol. if i happen to lose it before getting married then i lose it. i don't know my future so we'll just have to see what and who's in it
Are you really 18?
Yes i am i just turned 18
What school you go to?
I'm sorry thats really a classified information :)
Is it true that you never wear make-up in your pictures?
yes its true. i only wear make-up to my job because its one of the requirements.
Are you in to girls?
No, i'm not. i may think say a girl is pretty or hot but all girls do that even if they arent gay.
Do you support the gays?
Of course i do 100%%%
Do you like animals?
certain ones yes. i love puppies and newborn dogs
Do you want to have sex?
one day i would like to experience how it feels like but again its not my biggest worries.
Are you scared of life ?
who isn't lol. i love my life. i'm a girl i get scared sometimes
Are your tits real?
yes they are.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
The Way they world view me By Tina Okoli
This is the way the world view me.
They see me as a poor girl
A worthless, unmeaning full person
who can't do anything in her life
They see me as a liar
everytime i open my mouth
No body believes what i say
It's like i'm in this world fighting to be someone
Thats better.
A part of me feels neglected
and the other part of me feels ignored
When i open my mouth people think
every word that comes out of my mouth is a lie
They feel sorry for me because they think i'm useless
They talk mess about me
Saying that i can never accomplish anything in life
They say all i can ever be is homeless
They say this godly way that i changed to is a act and i'm nothing but a fake.
Some care so much about begin popular that they ignore me
every day i feel like crying but i cant because i have to stay strong and act like im strong
They see me as a user when i'm not
Life is about fighting for what you want
Even when people doubt you
i've lost so many people.
I'm too shy in class
They put me down because they think they are better than me
i'm losing focus of what really matters and paying attention to what doesn't matter.
Even When i try making a new friend they hear somethings about me that was in the past that makes them wanna run away.
People see me as untrustworthy, fake and who can't handle things in a mature way.
They say so many stuff about me that it makes me wanna cry and laugh at the same time.
They say i'm too weak minded and stupid to accomplish becoming a lawyer and model
but the one thing i can do is smile and give god my problems to solve for me
I've did and said some things in the past that i'm not every proud of doing and saying but that's the past and i can't go back in time and change it.
I've been know to be shy, awkward weird and strange.
People make so many bad jokes and say things not knowing that i wouldn't hear them
I've made mistakes in my past and i'm in the future trying to make things better and giving my whole soul to god to make me a better person
yes i have my flaws and i've made tons of mistakes but that doesn't mean that i'm still the same old me.
I've lost sight of whats really important.
People i've trusted can't even keep their mouth shut.
They think that them going out there and saying things i tell them makes them cool and a better person but it only puts them in other peoples level
i've been know to be a little crazy and other stuff too.
I'm almost 18 and still feel like i have a mind of a little girl.
i can't think straight
i've lost those who truly care about me
yes i'll admit that my personality gets the best of me and changes who i am
i can be emotionally at times and i can be sane.
I'm me and the way i view life and people are different.
I don't judge anyone
i'll let god do the judging for me.
you can judge me, say all the mess that you want about me but remember one thing god always holds your future in his hands.
He works his magic in mysterious ways
i will no longer let myself be lowered to anyone's level
they say i'm lesbian and so forth
but they don't know me.
When i try making friends girls always think that i'm trying to hit on them when i'm not.
I'm straight and always will be.
They think that all my pictures are photoshoped but it's not
i don't like school
Too many backstabbing
i really don't know why girls have to be jealous for
They see me as a poor girl
A worthless, unmeaning full person
who can't do anything in her life
They see me as a liar
everytime i open my mouth
No body believes what i say
It's like i'm in this world fighting to be someone
Thats better.
A part of me feels neglected
and the other part of me feels ignored
When i open my mouth people think
every word that comes out of my mouth is a lie
They feel sorry for me because they think i'm useless
They talk mess about me
Saying that i can never accomplish anything in life
They say all i can ever be is homeless
They say this godly way that i changed to is a act and i'm nothing but a fake.
Some care so much about begin popular that they ignore me
every day i feel like crying but i cant because i have to stay strong and act like im strong
They see me as a user when i'm not
Life is about fighting for what you want
Even when people doubt you
i've lost so many people.
I'm too shy in class
They put me down because they think they are better than me
i'm losing focus of what really matters and paying attention to what doesn't matter.
Even When i try making a new friend they hear somethings about me that was in the past that makes them wanna run away.
People see me as untrustworthy, fake and who can't handle things in a mature way.
They say so many stuff about me that it makes me wanna cry and laugh at the same time.
They say i'm too weak minded and stupid to accomplish becoming a lawyer and model
but the one thing i can do is smile and give god my problems to solve for me
I've did and said some things in the past that i'm not every proud of doing and saying but that's the past and i can't go back in time and change it.
I've been know to be shy, awkward weird and strange.
People make so many bad jokes and say things not knowing that i wouldn't hear them
I've made mistakes in my past and i'm in the future trying to make things better and giving my whole soul to god to make me a better person
yes i have my flaws and i've made tons of mistakes but that doesn't mean that i'm still the same old me.
I've lost sight of whats really important.
People i've trusted can't even keep their mouth shut.
They think that them going out there and saying things i tell them makes them cool and a better person but it only puts them in other peoples level
i've been know to be a little crazy and other stuff too.
I'm almost 18 and still feel like i have a mind of a little girl.
i can't think straight
i've lost those who truly care about me
yes i'll admit that my personality gets the best of me and changes who i am
i can be emotionally at times and i can be sane.
I'm me and the way i view life and people are different.
I don't judge anyone
i'll let god do the judging for me.
you can judge me, say all the mess that you want about me but remember one thing god always holds your future in his hands.
He works his magic in mysterious ways
i will no longer let myself be lowered to anyone's level
they say i'm lesbian and so forth
but they don't know me.
When i try making friends girls always think that i'm trying to hit on them when i'm not.
I'm straight and always will be.
They think that all my pictures are photoshoped but it's not
i don't like school
Too many backstabbing
i really don't know why girls have to be jealous for
Saturday, April 3, 2010
His Type
He is a jock
He is in almost every sports you could ever think of that a young boy in school does.
He has ladies coming in from left to right.
He is the type to go for the most prettiest girl at school
And have the most prettiest date ever.
He is the type of person who would never go out with a fat chick because it would ruin his rep.
He is the type to go for girls who has money and can afford clothes and certain things in life.
He never goes out with a girl who wears the same thing twice or even more.
He cares a lot about what people think.
His the type to chase a girl until she says that she likes him then he backs off.
He keeps his things private.
He likes comedy and anything that makes people laugh.
He says that he doesn't like her but then he stares at her like he does.
He holds a grudge on people for a really long time.
He never goes out with a girl who isn't pretty
He tells her that she isn't his type and she lets go cause she knew she messed up first.
He is in almost every sports you could ever think of that a young boy in school does.
He has ladies coming in from left to right.
He is the type to go for the most prettiest girl at school
And have the most prettiest date ever.
He is the type of person who would never go out with a fat chick because it would ruin his rep.
He is the type to go for girls who has money and can afford clothes and certain things in life.
He never goes out with a girl who wears the same thing twice or even more.
He cares a lot about what people think.
His the type to chase a girl until she says that she likes him then he backs off.
He keeps his things private.
He likes comedy and anything that makes people laugh.
He says that he doesn't like her but then he stares at her like he does.
He holds a grudge on people for a really long time.
He never goes out with a girl who isn't pretty
He tells her that she isn't his type and she lets go cause she knew she messed up first.
Friday, March 26, 2010
in love with you(edit)
Verse 1:
Hands holding hands
Running fingers through hair strands
Lips touch lips
Hands holding hips
This love is something Im goin to miss
I am surrounded by bliss
As he surroundes me with arms like towers
Telling me he loves me for hours
He must wear cocaine chapstick
Because I am addictied to his lips
There is nothing that I want more
Because love isnt something you can buy in the store
If we could, then what would we have hearts for?
Its all about me and you
Nobody else, its nothin new
Im so attached stuck like glue
Chorus:
I am so in love with you
In love with everything you do
In love with everything you are
In love with everything you want to be
In love with how you can talk to me
I am so in love with you
Verse 2:
if it was fake, then it wouldnt have lasted
if they did movie of my life, you woudve been the only one casted
ur like my own personal disease
ur like the rain and im the seas
U fill me up and help me breath
without you there is no me
ur the wings that make me free
ur the eyes that help me see
ur like the roots and im the tree
u stay strong so i can stand
only God can understand
the silent conversations we share
you took my heart and handled it with care
The only part of life that I thinks not fair
is the fact that in the end, one of us wont be there
the things love can create...wat i would give to have it again....doesnt amount to much lol
Hands holding hands
Running fingers through hair strands
Lips touch lips
Hands holding hips
This love is something Im goin to miss
I am surrounded by bliss
As he surroundes me with arms like towers
Telling me he loves me for hours
He must wear cocaine chapstick
Because I am addictied to his lips
There is nothing that I want more
Because love isnt something you can buy in the store
If we could, then what would we have hearts for?
Its all about me and you
Nobody else, its nothin new
Im so attached stuck like glue
Chorus:
I am so in love with you
In love with everything you do
In love with everything you are
In love with everything you want to be
In love with how you can talk to me
I am so in love with you
Verse 2:
if it was fake, then it wouldnt have lasted
if they did movie of my life, you woudve been the only one casted
ur like my own personal disease
ur like the rain and im the seas
U fill me up and help me breath
without you there is no me
ur the wings that make me free
ur the eyes that help me see
ur like the roots and im the tree
u stay strong so i can stand
only God can understand
the silent conversations we share
you took my heart and handled it with care
The only part of life that I thinks not fair
is the fact that in the end, one of us wont be there
the things love can create...wat i would give to have it again....doesnt amount to much lol
pretty sick
All yall wack dudes, come at me if you dare
but trust and believe, yall are in for a scare
ill slit ya wrists, put u in a warm tub, and not even care
id be sittin there watchin you bleed everywhere
i might give you an asprin, does that sound fair?
a chick with a metaphorical dick, does that sound rare?
i murder dudes like buffy the vamp slayer
all my bitches are all former players
if there was a CrazyTown, id be the mayor
naaaaw id be the president
and youd all be the residents
doesn it sound like a happy ending?
then we can buy little hamsters for blending
make a little smoothie for sending
to the people who make machines for vending
or give to girls who are popular for bending
anyways...i forgot what i was thinking
like the Titanic, my sanity is sinking
18 bars down without even blinking
lets see how long you can go without stinking
but trust and believe, yall are in for a scare
ill slit ya wrists, put u in a warm tub, and not even care
id be sittin there watchin you bleed everywhere
i might give you an asprin, does that sound fair?
a chick with a metaphorical dick, does that sound rare?
i murder dudes like buffy the vamp slayer
all my bitches are all former players
if there was a CrazyTown, id be the mayor
naaaaw id be the president
and youd all be the residents
doesn it sound like a happy ending?
then we can buy little hamsters for blending
make a little smoothie for sending
to the people who make machines for vending
or give to girls who are popular for bending
anyways...i forgot what i was thinking
like the Titanic, my sanity is sinking
18 bars down without even blinking
lets see how long you can go without stinking
super bleh freestyle
try to face me? im the hottest chick around
imma do u like chris brown and take yo ass down
wit no makeup, ill make u look like a clown
come wit a smile and leave wit a frown
i wanna thank you for the mic check
jus wanna let you know the divas on deck
i feel like goin off the current topic
"no Yazzy, no stop it!"
thats what youll be sayin
get on ya knees to start prayin
you wanna fuck wit me, u betta build ya arsenal
cause imma bad bitch and i will get personal
imma do u like chris brown and take yo ass down
wit no makeup, ill make u look like a clown
come wit a smile and leave wit a frown
i wanna thank you for the mic check
jus wanna let you know the divas on deck
i feel like goin off the current topic
"no Yazzy, no stop it!"
thats what youll be sayin
get on ya knees to start prayin
you wanna fuck wit me, u betta build ya arsenal
cause imma bad bitch and i will get personal
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