The New Me Tina

everyone this is tina. i have had my ups and downs but lately everybody has been seeing my downs. which isn't a pretty sight thats why everyone decides to leave my side and stop talking to me. which is kool cause i made new and amazing cool friends who brightens up my day and keeps things to themselves that i tell them.Everybody in my school always talks about me in a negative way,which honestly i could care less because Girls talk shit cuz they think they know me.Truth is if i had a dick they'd be the first to blow me. Life is so good right now all i am focusing on is the good part of life and helping out the people in need.noticed that people i call my little sis and those who are close to me left because they couldn't handle my crazines and my sad side but thats life nobody is perfect and no body is always happy all the time. me being happy is the happiest day of my life hehee. life for me is full of joy and happiness. i may get sad and crazy sometimes but there are days when i'm always gonna be happy and hyper. that's life and it shouldn't be dull it should be fill with happiness and thoughts.The older we get the more wiser we are. i'm just living life and figuring me out.i'm still a teenager not an adult yet.through everything i have been through i am still standing. this is my song that inspires me to be better and take the right path in life.

LIFE AS WE KNOW IT

You guess always see me writing things about life. you probably think that i'm crazy and weird but that's understandable. I'm addicted to life, the images that life has to offer. i observe things and people to understand them better. when i start working on my own experiment i get so into it that i lose who i am. you can say that when i start something i have to finish it. i'm a visualary. I observe everything and everyone in the world. you might not know when i observe you but when i do i usually don't get the answers that i'm looking for.it's always the opposite. When you look at peopl what do you see? i'll tell you, you will see a human being standing right in front of you, wearing clothes and acting normal. No body knows their life story but them and their family.When you truly take the time out to observe people and life around you. you would see that the grass isn't always greenier on the other side. Some people are so miseriable that they cover it up with a smile and never want to talk about it. others just try to block it out and see what they can make out of life right now. For examples celebrities, they are always smiling, happy,you never know what happens behind close doors but when you observe them. most of them has alot of stalkers but they don't put it out there they try and work it out with the cops, give them alot of information about them and try to put them in jail. others do it in a more direct approach by telling everyone that they know about you, how you would never leave them alone,never to talk to you, they really try every thing possible in the world to put it low key but when the time comes they would try and put it out there in the media. if you stand one place you will notice that the world keeps moving even though your still. every decision we make results in what direction our life would go in. if we make bad decisions we become bad people but if we change it around and become good and happy people then thats who we will become in the future. life is about decisions and what we say. so its better for us to think before we speak, and act carely. In the world alot of people would talk about you. that's life but you just have to deal with it.life is the same routine. go to kingdergarten >middle school> high school> college>get a degree>look for a job> Get a job> move out of your parents house > look for love> get married > start a family> Have kids> and watch them grow up then we die but for some of us things might be a little different along the road. either road we take sometimes make it on top and some times we don't.

Turning point

so lately i have been feeling a little down, and wanting to kill myself but then i had 3 amazing people who opened my eyes and made me realize what i have and i shouldn't let little things ruin me or break me down. yea i know life is hard. just because things aren't going your way or if you made a big mistake that doesn't mean that you should cry over it and wanna kill yourself,you have to remember ur dreams and ur goals and want to fight harder to achieve them. killing yourself will only mean that you are letting them win and the devil will be happy so don't let it happen.Yesterday i was completely sure that i was done with life all because things were going wrong and i couldn't handle it, then i turned on joel and it made me realize that i shouldn't care about what people say or think about me. Even when they talk mess or put u down you should always put a smile on ur face and don't take things in to ur hands instead put them in gods hands because god is cooking up a big feast for you up in heaven and when the time is right he will want you to have what you want and he will want to thank you in front of those who were so evil, mean and people who put u down all these years. Yea i know i don't have much right now but one day i know that i will. Yea i know i wear the same clothes over and over again but one day i know that it will all change.Yea i know people talk mess but i would not take it in to my own hands i will put it in gods hands and let him work it out. God is my life, always and forever will be. He shows me the light everytime that i don't feel well or when i'm feeling weak. he is there to remind me that i'm young this is just a stage in my life that i have to over come to become stronger and a better person and running away wouldn't solve anything.it will only make the things that u are running away from still be there and you have to find a way to deal with them.New year is almost coming up and before it came i had to make a couple of changes by cutting out those who always made me come home crying, those who put me down, talk mess and those who really wasn't really my friends they were just there to watch me break down and smile about it. This new year i'm happy that i'm starting fresh and moving on with my life. i'm starting new no drama, no fakes , no mean people, no people who wanna put me down, or make me cry. hey i'm only 17 and this is a phase that i'm going through and as i get older my life will change cause i hold my own future in my hands. i don't let people label me i label myself what they say or think doesn't matter to me the only thing that matters to me is my family, my close friends and those who care about me. i know i'm going somewhere with my life and people see that so they try to push me and put me down as much as they can so i can't succeed in the future but i'm not going to let that happen. i'm in a much better place no more sounding crazy and no more saying things that sound gay. just cause i don't dress like every single girl at my school and i choose to dress whatever cause school is school i'm there to learn not to get guys who are way too immature for me. I am Tina Okoli,17 y.o., Straight , single , putting all my faith in god and I DEFINE WHO I AM NOT YOU. IT'S EITHER YOU LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM OR YOU LEAVE ME ALONE. SIMPLE AS THAT.

Hello Again!!

I've been SUPER busy sooooo that's why I have soooooooooooooooo many freestyles. :D

I'm At a Wack Ass Party

Kayso, this guy was totally hatin on me so I was all like "Oh heeelll naw!!"
So that's why I wrote this here little rap. The guy's name just HAPPENED to be imataparty.

why does it gotta be me wit the low rating
Im sick and tired of all the damn hating
If you wanna fuck wit me jus say it
Cause now you look like a punk wit dat gay shit
You gimme a compliment then 42 fake it
Trust and believe, im no bitch you wanna play wit
Listen, ill be like a plane and you can be the towers
Ill tear yo ass down and youll be the one lookin sour
Here I was thinkin that we could be cool
But now i see imma have to take yo ass to school
Sit yo ass down and learn the number one rule
DO NOT FUCK WITH A BADASS DIVA!
Cause her words cut like a sharp meat cleava
Her spit will decapitate any dude
Who come at her tryna actin rude
Hope you get lucky and shes in a good mood
If shes not, shell eat you up like good food

Random Bars...OF CHOCOLATE!

goin up against me is like suicide
my rhymes are my weapons to commit homicide
killin off fools like i was Jeffery Dahmer
lookin like i couldnt be any calmer
but in my mind imma rhyme bomber
Terrorizin wack rappers like Osama
He didnt need to hide, he just stood behind yo momma
Now i aint tryna start no drama
I just wanna OH LOOK! A LLAMA!
Oops I got distracted
lets get back to the factses
Im 5 foot 3
cute as can be
lookins for free
but to touch
there is a fee

In Love With You ♥

Hand holding Hands
Running fingers through hair strands
Lips touch lips
Hands holding hips
This love is something Im goin to miss
I am surrounded by bliss
As he surroundes me with arms like towers
Telling me he loves me for hours
He must wear cocaine chapstick
Because I am addictied to his lips
There is nothing that I want more
Because love isnt something you can buy in the store
If we could, then what would we have hearts for?
Its all about me and you
Nobody else, its nothin new
Im so attached
stuck like glue
if it was fake, then it wouldn have lasted
if they did movie of my life, you woudve been the only one casted
ur like my own personal disease
ur like the rain and im the seas
U fill me up and help me breath
without you there is no me
ur the wings that make me free
ur the eyes that help me see
ur like the roots and im the tree
u stay strong so i can stand
only God can understand
the silent conversations we share
you took my heart and handled it with care
The only part of life that I thinks not fair
is the fact that in the end, one of us wont be there

I'm No Actress

“A word used to exclude is now exclusively used by the excluded and with it excluding the original excluders who use the slang to now gain inclusion into the group of which their group wanted to be removed from American politics of race.”

Hey it's Aneesa, I just kinda feel like sharing a little something with y'all. Growing up, people would tell me I didn’t “act black”. After a while I, just kind of brushed it off because I knew who I was. Now that I’m older, I am starting to question what “acting black” is because I really want to know. One reason people said that I don’t “act black” is because of how I speak. I generally try to enunciate my words due to the fact that I enjoy having a conversation that isn’t full of “whats?” and “huhs?” Another reason why people say that I’m not black is because of the way I dress. I generally try to be original and dressing like every other black person isn’t really accomplishing that. People would also say it’s because of the way I act. I GENERALLY try to BE MYSELF and myself just happens to be crazy, wild, and DANGEROUSLY random. In the eighth grade, I was sitting at a table with some friends and this girl who just happened to be one of the people who is responsible for this post stands up and yells "ALL THE NIGGERS CAN SIT OVER THERE!(poiting at where I was sitting) AND ALL THE NIGGAS CAN SIT HERE!(where she was sitting)" If you imagined a multitude of people running to where she was...then you're wrong. I thought about this event recently and thought to myself

I wonder if she realised how ignorant she sounded

Are You Threatening Me?

Hey, it's Aneesa again. Today has been a really good day for me...probably because I found a heads-up penny in my third period today. I met a new friend, made up with an old one, and some money for UNICEF. I bet you all are wondering how I got money for UNICEF or why I got money for UNICEF. Well, I'm getting money for UNICEF because I care and because every child deserves an education. Now to tell you HOW. Well my first strategy to geting money was to ask nicely, but I decided against that because whoever got what they wanted by being nice?? So I decided to take the other approach and ask people that I know to "Donate or die". Not in a mean way or anything like that, but in a nice way where they aren't afraid to give money but are afraid to not give money. So far I have $5.08 cause Imma G.

This Guy!

Okay, on Friday I was the "this guy". I was only the "this guy" because I'm freakin' hilarious. My first display of hilariousness was in second period Chinese and my friend Stephen was talking about something and the only thing I really heard was "I would just buy a whole bunch of stuff that I don't even need." Perfect opportunity that I had to take, I turned around and said, "Like condoms?"

My second display of hilariousness was displayed in fourth period P.E., it wasn't really that funny, but it inspired a few giggles. This guy behind me says to the guy next to him "You know what sucks?" Get your mind out of the gutter, I turned around and said "Vacuums?". tehe :D